I recently realised that on a daily basis i am dreaming of the things i WANT and not the things i NEED.. because as of this moment i need for NOTHING! there is nothing in the world that i need right now! i have everything i could desire, a beautiful Husband who is my rock and my best friend and a beautiful little girl who inspires me to see the magic and the beauty in ALL gods creations!
i mean who are we to want for things when we have already been given so so much! Life, Someone to share it with, a family who would go to the ends of the earth for me! as i would for all of them and the simple daily joys like chocolate and hot showers!
there are so many people in this world who are so so less fortunate than myself but yet i still want for things like i deserve them! those children without parents, what about them, they deserve them! what did they do wrong, the children who dont have a daily meal, they deserve that dont they?
how do i justify spending $100 on a pair of shoes when $100 could buy a child breakfast lunch and dinner for a month? a whole month?
how do you get past that feeling like they DESERVE better? They DESERVE a chance too dont they?
as of today i am making a change! in honour of my biggest inspiration, My little Addi Diddle, i am devoting more of my money and time to help those who are less fortunate, those whome i can help and who Deserve it!
Looking at Addi everyday is making me feel so so lucky and to know there are kids in the world who Dont get a chance to experience life the way we have become accustomed makes me feel sick! they arent even given a chance!
so here is my challenge to you!
Get yourself a big jar.. one you cant open without breaking and put even just a dollar in it every day, then donate it to a charity that you know will make a difference, do this for a year and every month donate!
OR
sponser a child, put there picture and letters on your fridge and let that be a reminder that YOU can change the world, 1 day, 1 dollar at a a time!
xx
Saturday 22 October 2011
Monday 10 October 2011
Labour Pains
Well as a mum i have a labour story but since giving birth i have a huge interest in others stories, where they gave birth, how they coped, did they have drugs, how was their hospital stay, how long did they stay, what would you change for next time?
so here is min and i hope a few of you will share yours in the comments!
On feburary 18 2011, i awoke at 4am with a sharp jolting pain in my side, as before i thought it was gas and decided to get out of bed and take a wonder around the house untill the pain subsided! but suprise suprise it didnt, by this stage i was 3 days overdue so i was slightly flustered! but by 7am they were regular pains so i decided to wake jon and call the hospital! as per usual they told me to stay home as long as i could, i was planning on doing that but by 8am they were 3 mins apart and really really strong so we headed in. once we arrived we were whisked into a room and i was given an exam, unfortunatly i was only 1cm dialated! =[ i was then put on a moiter and shifted to my own room to "wait it out" during the day i had regular visitors and i was staying as calm as i could! jon was great, calling everyone and letting them know what was happening! by 5pm i was still only 3cm dialiated but my contractions were now 2 mins apart and lasting for about 50 seconds! i had my whole family in the room timing it on there iphone.
by the time visiting hours finished it was just Jon and me and my sister in the room, by 9pm when my mum came back i was well and truly over it! having the midwives push for a drug free birth so i was at this stage drug free and in agony i was frustrated and took my frustrations out on the midwife who told me i couldnt have more than 2 people with me in the room! wich meant my sister had to leave! i was annoyed and devestated! i really wanted her to be there! by 10pm the moved me into a birthing suite and at 11 i was givin an injection of morphine, stating before hand that it doesnt ever have the desired effect on me! and to every one elses shock it stopped my contractions for over an hour! (see i told you so)
then at almost 1.30 i was given a hormone to bring labour back on! by now i was 7cm dialated and completely over it, i was sooo soo tired i could barely speak! for the next 2 hours we tried the gas
and a hot shower to get me through but still was no good!
by 4am i was 9 cm and it was time for my epi! it took 35 minutes for the epi to be put in because i was having contractions every 30 seconds and they were lasting a minute! Once the epi was inplace it was time for the drug to be administered but by then i was ready to push! before the epi could take effect i was screaming ad i pushed my beautiful little girl into the world!
my mummy watched on as she crowned saying WOW Deekie! at 4.59AM my little girl was born, bright eyed and so inquisitive!
she is now almost 8 months old and i would not change a thing about her! she is just perfect! My first birthing experience probobly wasnt ideal but i have an incredible miracle to show for it!
i hope after reading my story you will all share your own birth stories in the comments section! i do love hearing how amazing some people stories are!
xxx
so here is min and i hope a few of you will share yours in the comments!
by the time visiting hours finished it was just Jon and me and my sister in the room, by 9pm when my mum came back i was well and truly over it! having the midwives push for a drug free birth so i was at this stage drug free and in agony i was frustrated and took my frustrations out on the midwife who told me i couldnt have more than 2 people with me in the room! wich meant my sister had to leave! i was annoyed and devestated! i really wanted her to be there! by 10pm the moved me into a birthing suite and at 11 i was givin an injection of morphine, stating before hand that it doesnt ever have the desired effect on me! and to every one elses shock it stopped my contractions for over an hour! (see i told you so)
then at almost 1.30 i was given a hormone to bring labour back on! by now i was 7cm dialated and completely over it, i was sooo soo tired i could barely speak! for the next 2 hours we tried the gas
and a hot shower to get me through but still was no good!
by 4am i was 9 cm and it was time for my epi! it took 35 minutes for the epi to be put in because i was having contractions every 30 seconds and they were lasting a minute! Once the epi was inplace it was time for the drug to be administered but by then i was ready to push! before the epi could take effect i was screaming ad i pushed my beautiful little girl into the world!
my mummy watched on as she crowned saying WOW Deekie! at 4.59AM my little girl was born, bright eyed and so inquisitive!
xxx
Sunday 2 October 2011
to leave the nest....
Well this past week has been one of change for our little family, with Miss a Almost crawling but still getting around quite well, and fast i might add,
and Hubby Having to take on a whole new parenting role, Sole carer while i headed back to work! thats right i have re entered the workforce, only on a part time basis on the days Jon doesnt work. and i have to admit, i was rather scared! i wasnt prepared for what it might be like as i have been out for almost a year! so for the first time in my life i was really nervous!
although i didnt need to be, the Ladies from work are just divine! they made me feel so at ease and i now look forward to it! although i do dread the sore feet and back when i get home but at least when i get out of the house for the day i know i am helping to put our little family 1 step closer to easy street! and i get the snuggliest cuddles when i get home! but i am afraid i will miss something, maybe Addi will start crawling while im not here or walking or feeding herself! and to think that i am giving up witnessing these vital moments in her life makes me rather sad! and i know Jon wont have the camera ready so i wont even be able to look back on it! (He isnt much of a camera whore like me).
so how do other mothers cope? how do they get by knowing that while theyre not there, their little one could be doing something incredible for the first time! it helps me to understand why so many mums stay at home for years!
i suppose i have to get used to it! i mean Jon must feel the same way and he copes! although he is superman so he has head start at awomeness!! well thats what i tell Addi when he does something i cant! i suppose it another trial in life that i will just have to endure and come out stronger on the other side! i mean this is one of the easier ones! and i trust that if i am meant to see her do it she will do it when i am home! and Jon deserves a few firsts too! so far he has her rolling and that it! and he is home 50% of the time!
well thats my rant for the day!
i hope your all doing well!
love love love! all over love!
xxxxx
although i didnt need to be, the Ladies from work are just divine! they made me feel so at ease and i now look forward to it! although i do dread the sore feet and back when i get home but at least when i get out of the house for the day i know i am helping to put our little family 1 step closer to easy street! and i get the snuggliest cuddles when i get home! but i am afraid i will miss something, maybe Addi will start crawling while im not here or walking or feeding herself! and to think that i am giving up witnessing these vital moments in her life makes me rather sad! and i know Jon wont have the camera ready so i wont even be able to look back on it! (He isnt much of a camera whore like me).
so how do other mothers cope? how do they get by knowing that while theyre not there, their little one could be doing something incredible for the first time! it helps me to understand why so many mums stay at home for years!
i suppose i have to get used to it! i mean Jon must feel the same way and he copes! although he is superman so he has head start at awomeness!! well thats what i tell Addi when he does something i cant! i suppose it another trial in life that i will just have to endure and come out stronger on the other side! i mean this is one of the easier ones! and i trust that if i am meant to see her do it she will do it when i am home! and Jon deserves a few firsts too! so far he has her rolling and that it! and he is home 50% of the time!
well thats my rant for the day!
i hope your all doing well!
love love love! all over love!
xxxxx
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